Monday, October 11, 2010

Catching the Wind - Testimony

Wow what a pretty cool weekend!!... literally. Sunday afternoon rolled around and we headed to Bossier City to take Chelsey home. We all started talking about the goodness of the Lord and how He always made a way while we traveled. There had been times when we were just about out of gas, but somehow He put some in the tank. Then there were other times where He would guide us when we were lost.

In the middle of our conversation the car decelerates and the engine light comes on. I pulled over and turned it off. I started to crank it and nothing, it wouldn't turn over. At this time it was dark about 8 PM. Here I was with Mamaw, my three kids and Chelsey stranded on the side of HWY 1.

Not even a minute later a man pulled up to see if we needed a jump. First he pushed the car over to the bank parking lot. He had to go borrow some jumpers from someone at the gas station. First of all not many people actually pull over to help anymore. Secondly they would never go out of their way to find jumper cables!!

Called my insurance and when we figured it out I wouldn't have had enough money to pay the difference in the tow fee plus pay a taxi to bring us all home. So this angel, Patrick (GOD BLESS HIM), said that he would help in any way to get my babies and grandmother home. Wow...

All of us piled up in the back of his little truck and he drove out of his way about 50 total miles to take us home and even when we offered to pay for gas, he declined.

Mamaw told me that when they drove home they had a conversation about many things. It turns out that he never takes that route to go back to Keithville (yes Keithville - way south of Shreveport) but "something" told him to go this way. **Praise GOD that some still hear and obey the voice of the Lord**.

I praise God that HE ALWAYS comes to our rescue. He is amazing and these little "problems" in our lives are just carrying us from faith to faith.

I praise the Lord for surrounding me with angels!!

PS we had a BLAST riding home in the back of that truck ;) ;)

Thursday, September 30, 2010

Smacking on the "Like" Button

Ha!!

Well I was thinking about this yesterday... Sure most can agree that the "like" button on Facebook has other meanings then "like"... give me a break ;)

With that said I wanted to define other things it means to me...

*acknowledging the post
*I LOVE IT (usually accompanies and overly excited comment) don't laugh or judge "LOL;)"
*hey what's up
*I am thinking about you, hit me back to let me know you're thinking of me
*ok you tagged me so here I will tag you back
*I accept your comment or post but I may disagree with some of it... if I choose to explain myself, I will comment ;)
*Bahahahahahahaha.... Hilarious! I usually add a few words
*I'm touched by your post/pic/comment
*I really like it a lot ;) ;)

There are so many more. Just remember when someone "likes" your post/comment/pic, etc... it could mean SO MANY things. Let's not over think stuff and get our minds in a frenzy, k? ;)

Wednesday, September 8, 2010

My Top Five ;)

There is nothing wrong with knowing just what you want in the opposite sex. Many would probably laugh at the idea of writing all the qualities they love in the opposite sex, but hey, why not. It's for your own eyes, anyway.

I am a believer in God's will. I also believe that we must be "moving" and "seeking" as well. I don't think that one day the love of your life will fall from the sky and land in your lap... just like I don't believe money will fall from the sky, either. We must first WANT, have FAITH and CLAIM, all the while we are SEEKING.

Here is what I want you to do and I am even going to share a few of my secrets. Why? Because I am just sweet like that ;p ha. Write down 15 qualities that you look for in the opposite sex. I am going to share my top 5 :) (awwwwwww)! Be specific!!

I would say a family man. That is TOO vague and could mean many things. So instead...

(1) MUST really love his Mom and have a good relationship with her.

(2) MUST LOVE KIDS - all kids, any kids and especially his own and mine! Period, NO exceptions.

(3) A good listener and communicator. Ha! I would elaborate but I don't have time to write a book right now... ;)

(4) God fearing, God loving and God follower. If God is not his head, then he cannot be mine. I will have it no other way. He must love God like I do and that is A LOT!

(5) He must know what he wants in life. He must be ambitious and very self motivated. I will support him and lift him up but I will NOT drag a man around or give piggy backs... ouch! In other words, independence and motivation is SO attractive.

Ok that is my top five and all that I am giving.

When you do your 15, make them into sentences, like this:

The man of my dreams must love his mom and children. This helps me feel secure and I know that if he is close to her, he will be close to me because he values and respects women. Loving children is extremely important because mine are my life. A man who loves God, I know will also love me. I love an ambitious man because he is persistent and consistent with whatever he loves to do, he sets goals and is highly motivated. Not only that, he shares these dreams and ambitions with me, which also helps me feel secure and loved by him. With his dreams, he also wants to know about mine. This is what makes me love him so much.

Of course I only have five but this gives an idea to help you out. Begin reading your "story" to yourself and believe that this incredible person will be a part of your life.

Much Love ;)

Monday, August 23, 2010

The Spirit of Jezebel In Our Pews

My eyes are flooded and my heart heavy. There is a pain that shoots through me and a liar that tells me to keep quiet. There are times when the Lord will show me something and as hard as it may be, the many relationships that I could potentially lose seem to be mediocre and the pain I feel in my spirit for our ministers can be extremely overwhelming.

Many believe that the spirit of Jezebel is a lustful or promiscuous spirit. I could see how that may be true. However, my pastor told me long ago that although she had those traits, Jezebel just hated the ministry, period. She was a killer of the ministry.

My heart hurts so bad because I am seeing far too many of our ladies (younger girls, especially) falling into this trap. While Jezebel was a flat out she-devil, she was also very seductive so that she could get what she wanted.

Jezebel was after the man of God. Jezebel was a witch. Seduction is a witchcraft spirit and it is sitting on our pews and in our ladies. This is not easy for me to write but I am doing it because I feel that the Lord is telling me to.

It is hard enough on the man of God (especially the single men) to fight spirits of adultery, lust, fornication, etc. in the world, but when it is sitting in the pew, there is more to it than just all of that. This is also the spirit of Jezebel because her primary goal is to seduce, manipulate and "kill" the man of God.

Ministers, you are being attacked like never before and Satan has slithered his way into the Church using our women. This is the one tactic that he is using in these last days. Remember to take heed to seducing spirits. Not only is the Jezebel spirit wanting to seduce you into adultery, she is wanting to destroy you, your family and your ministry.

She doesn't just make her way into the church, either. She disguises herself on the Internet as a sister in Christ. Ladies, it is our DUTY to show these other women and girls what they ought not to do. If you are going to be Apostolic, please be Apostolic. If you are going to allow Satan to trip you up, find an alter! Quick.

Lord Jesus, please show me the error of my ways! If I have ANYTHING that is ungodly on here, show me so that I can remove it, in Jesus name. Don't allow me to be a stumbling block, especially for the ministry and any man of God. In Jesus name!

Thursday, August 19, 2010

Thought I'd Throw This Out There ;)

Sometimes I just feel like yaking and for those of you who care to read, well read away ;)

Sports! I will NEVER be with another man who doesn't like them! Period. No wrestling does NOT count as a sport, either does car racing, horse racing ANY racing! LOL

Talking, I love to do it but I REALLY love to converse. ;) Randomly stays on my mind - there is such a thing.

I am spontaneous probably TOO spontaneous, so don't be surprised if I throw something like this blog, out there ;) ha

If you are mean to kids in any way shape or form you WILL go to hell. Repent and apologize now... thanks!

I am finally diving into more of my book, besides the Title and Chapter Titles ;) Did I really have any time to before? :)

I love the rain and purple and both ;)

Forget falling, forget drowning, forget being heart-broken, forget everything but the Lord, I fear not being the best Mom! - my ONLY fear! - so scary

My kids deserve a better life. Jesus knows this, because I tell Him all the time!

Don't ever let "I love you" lose it's value. There is more than meaning in those words. Saying them is putting your heart at your fingertips. Never lose the passion or the courage! Ever...

Watermelon Recipe for Chicken! Wow... ;p

Grilled Chicken With Watermelon Barbecue Sauce

SERVES 4
PREP TIME: 15 minutes
COOK TIME: 50 minutes

4 boneless, skinless chicken breast halves (5 ounces each) For sauce:
2 cups seedless watermelon, cubed
1 6-ounce can tomato paste
1/3 cup cider vinegar
1/3 cup brown sugar
1 tablespoon Worcestershire sauce
1 tablespoon molasses
1 tablespoon minced fresh garlic
1 tablespoon finely chopped onion
1/2 teaspoon salt
1/2 teaspoon minced fresh ginger
1 cup seedless watermelon, chopped

Purée watermelon in a blender. Place purée in a Dutch oven over medium heat and cook uncovered for 20 minutes, stirring occasionally. Mix in remaining ingredients (except for the cup of chopped watermelon) and simmer uncovered for 10 minutes. Stir in the chopped watermelon and cook for an additional 5 minutes.

Grill chicken for 5 minutes. Turn chicken and brush with barbecue sauce. Cook for 5 more minutes, then turn and brush with more sauce and cook an additional 5 minutes. Brush with remaining sauce. Serve with mashed sweet potatoes, if desired.

SOURCE

Thursday, August 12, 2010

I Knew

From the moment I saw you
I knew you'd break my heart
I kept my distance
or would have just fallen apart
When I let you in
I was caught in the middle
Used to test the love of another
It's fine by me, if it's love she's given
and true to the very core.
If there is happiness in your eyes
She has love for your heart
All the while you smile
Simply being caught in the middle
... of two hearts...
Has been worth while.

Sunday, August 8, 2010

What's Your Sacrifice?

Giving what you have to give is giving. Giving what you don't have to give is sacrifice.

Jesus SACRIFICED! Giving IS NOT sacrifice unless there is pain that comes with it. I share NOT because I want to bring myself any glory. I am SHARING to inspire others and show them just how God WILL move if you just step out in faith.

Here's my story and YES I am going to tell it ALL!

My income: $930 a month (was $810 - just increased $120)
Rent: $137 (I am blessed that rent is this cheap - not blessed that my kids face racism everyday, not to mention foul language and hate)
Utilities: $200
Car: $230
Insurance: $160
Household stuff: $100
Gas to go to work: $75

You do the math.

How much is the work of the Lord worth to you? Every man of God who was BLESSED, SACRIFICED!

Look at Job... he lost IT ALL

Moses... he lost royalty, plush living, fame

Jesus... He lost His life

What are you willing to lose?

God WILL supply ALL your needs. It takes SACRIFICE to see a move of God. I just want to share how He is moving in my life.

I DO NOT make enough money to travel anywhere! Desperate times call for desperate measures... I AM DESPERATE to see this town saved. Not because I love Vivian (I despise this place) but because I love people and the things of God. I HAD to SACRIFICE to go and see for myself.

Total travel expenses this summer:

Splendora, Tx.:
Hotel: $215
Gas: $100
Food: $50

Columbus, Oh.:
Gas: $220
Food: $100
Hotel one night: $60
Car repairs: $110
Work loss: $50

El Dorado, Ak.
Gas: $40
Food: $40

I just believe that the Lord is going to do something great in Vivian, so saddle up ya'll because you are about to go on the ride of your life! Satan has had this town TOO long! Frankly, God WILL sustain me or MOVE me. I am not being sustained. I am a firm believer that He doesn't want us to struggle. I struggle. I pray that my SACRIFICE has been acceptable to Him.

He knows my heart.
He knows my intentions.
He knows ALL my sacrifice.

I encourage you to step out and sacrifice. True things of God and true moves of God only come with sacrifice.

Do not just give, but sacrifice.

Praise report: God still hasn't failed me.

Saturday, July 31, 2010

Qualities that Women Find Irresistible in Men

Honestly, ladies and gentlemen I am very interested in what men like, what they need and their desires in a relationship. According to ALL men that I have talked to in these past few years about the subject, men seem to be quite simple! What a relief...

Ladies the fact of the matter is that guys are too simple. We are the ones who make them "Something to try and figure out". We are the more complex gender. Or are we? Really everyone! We can all be simple with just one key factor. That is GREAT communication skills. If you are lacking in this area, there are great books out there that can show you how to be the best communicator around.

Without COMMUNICATION, you have NO relationship! ANY relationship!

Now my point of this is to share things that women love in men. Men are simple; they want food, sex and money. Just kidding, but for the most part ladies, they want to please us! ;) Aww

Men, ladies love the fact that you want to please us. It is adorable, admirable and honorable. Thank YOU!

We love conversation! So glad that Shon Hyneman brought this up! When we ask how your day went, we want more of a response than "good". In all reality, we are asking "what made your day great (or bad). We NEED conversation! It's more than just an answer.

Gentleness, in all areas. It is so attractive to have a man who is gentle in speech, has gentle hands and a gentle aura. Now, on the other hand, I personally love the quality of a man who is firm with love. A man to keep me straight and my thoughts into perspective. This is just Godly order. Everything can be done, gently.

Eager to teach. I LOVE learning. I STARVE everyday to learn something new. I am constantly seeking something new to learn. A man who always has something new to show me... new aspirations, new goals, new lessons on life, new experiences, new anything PLEASE teach me about it! :) So irresistible.

Loves the things I love: kids, outreach, God, sports, writing, reading, people. Enough said! :)

A good listener. I love conversation and someone who is willing to hear me out and give me good feedback! There is just something about a man who is attentive to what I have to say and is willing to either give me advice or acknowledge that I am talking to him. Love it!

There is a lot more about qualities of a great man! This is just the beginning! :)

Wednesday, July 14, 2010

My Ohio Adventure, This Time ;) Ha!

It WAS NOT planned. Are any of my adventures ever really planned? Didn't think so :)

Not even a week before Boot Camp I spoke with my online friend, Erin about how I wished she lived closer to Columbus so I could go to the Boot Camp and meet her, FINALLY!

It worked out and I was just 17 hours away! Woo hoo. Wanting to meet the one who connected me to FAC in Cincinnati (the place I was going to move to), I thought it would be cool to swing by and pick up Terry.

Well it didn't happen that easily. I ended up being too tired to drive all the way to Dover (2 hrs north of Columbus and 3 1/2 hours north of Cincy) because then I may not have time to go to Thursday night service! I HAD to be there for the opening service, so I stayed at a hotel in Cincy on Thursday night, so I could take Terry.

Two AM Thursday night I had to drive back to Cincy lol. Needless to say, I almost killed us all taking Terry home! I literally fell asleep! And why a 20 year old doesn't have his license yet? Just BOO! lol

Anyway, we headed out for Boot Camp bright and early Friday morning just to slam into a 2x2 in the road doing almost 70 MPH!. IT BENT my WHEEL! lol Thank God for Geico roadside service and the nice mechanic who rescued us!

I mossied onto the church, donut and all.

Friday night RAIN OUT. However the kids and I decided to take advantage of it and splash in the ankle deep waters. Talk about a good time and very memorable. We had a blast and made the most of it!

I finally got to meet DJ (Erin's hubby) who can rock the violin! Then I met Erin that night after church! She is SO funny and fun to be around! Her babies are gorgeous and I am just blessed to finally meet her!

Friday night service was amazing! I enjoyed all of the awesome testimonies!

Getting 5 kids ready is a task and we were late Saturday lol. You know I hate being late! We had a good time with blitzing and reaching the lost. My kids love doing outreach and this was definitely a great experience.

Saturday night I was caught by a State Trooper swerving and was pulled over in DJ's car! LOL I mean the thing is touchy!... Power steering maxed! Phew, he let me slide ;) All it takes is a smile and a little prayer - oh and a little brother who let him know we were on our way back from a church convention. I was NOT drunk!... on liquor.

Sunday service at Pastor Hall's in Dover was outstanding! He preached "You cannot follow a parked car". I found that to be quite appropriate, considering! LOL He and Sis Hall were very nice and gracious. I can see making their church my church. That church seems to have a good outreach structure! I just wished I could have attended the bike rally this weekend! Oh well :-/

Over all it was fun! I had to leave a day later and it took a day to get home but all is well. I just loved the fact that I got to spend a night in my favorite place and meet many new people! Life is grand! ;)

Saturday, July 3, 2010

Envision Beyond Your Years Like Abraham

If your vision can be fulfilled in this lifetime, it is too small. Abraham saw beyond!! TF Tenney

Have a vision for your ministry with your children! My children have been prophesied over and I see beyond my years (should the Lord tarry) my children evangelizing the world! They all have callings over their lives. I am so humbled that the Lord has chosen us for something great. I feel like I am walking right into my purpose and all three of my babies are right with me.

Do not ever leave your kids out of your ministry. Take them with you when you are doing outreach. Have them sing with you in your music ministry. Allow them to lay hands on people and pray with them. Always envision them beyond your years, doing a work for God.

Leave your Stones of Legacy...

Friday, July 2, 2010

Solitude Ideas for Single Moms

Calgon take me away?

Right...

That is after the kids are pounding the door down, fighting, blaring the tv or radio, etc etc etc.! However Mom, you HAVE to make time for yourself. This is necessary for your health. Here are some ways that a single mom can make time to bask in solitude and relax.

The park! Take the kids to your local park. This will give them something to do, put everyone outside and give you a chance to RELAX...

I love to sit on the swing and read a good book, at the coolness of the day.

Enjoy a nice bath when the kids are in bed. This is a good time to meditate and relax, too. I have been known to fall asleep in the tub - don't ask lol

Go for a long drive. Driving does a lot for me. I love creation, a nice cool breeze in my hair and the ultimate control of driving. I love music so driving and music is perfect. Even if you have to take the kids; make it fun or get them something exciting to do, while you drive.

Single moms often find excuses not to make time to do the things they love or to just relax and smell the roses. You MUST teach your kids to slow down! The best way to do that is to slow down yourself. This was a HARD lesson for me to learn! Good luck ;)

Sunday, June 27, 2010

That Fine Line Between Arrogance and Confidence - For Gentlemen

Ah, so we had one in for the ladies. Here is the flip side, because I am fair, eh? ;) This is a great example of how a man is very confident and he is so gentle while confident. He doesn't have to be arrogant and rude or a prude to prove his confidence. A lot of men think that they do.

Please read my previous blog on this about ladies being confident so that you can get a better feel for the movie, "My Fair Lady".

Freddie is a gentlemen who fell in love with Eliza while she was still "learning". A diamond in the rough. He caught her in a bad mood because of something between her and Professor Higgins. She didn't want to hear another word, because that is all she heard. Tired of all the "words" she expresses what she wants.

Gentlemen, please notice how he acts the entire time. He listens to her and is still very gentle, wanting to be attentive to her needs. She is secretly wooed by him, but remember that she is not in the best of moods here.

The entire time he is gentle but very confident because he continues to pursue her. He is climbing that tree. It takes patience, lots of love and admiration and persistence.

Before this clip, he brought flowers and left them with the maid. Then danced and sang on the street, because of her. Again men, if you are humiliated for being this gentle, sincere and sweet, count it joy because a real lady LOVES that. She WILL meet your needs, just saying. If other men ridicule it is because they are jealous :) Period lol

That Fine Line Between Arrogance and Confidence - For Ladies

I KNOW most of you HAVE HAD to see "My Fair Lady". This is my favorite musical of all times! I love English and I love musicals. As a child my mom introduced this movie to me and I continue to learn from it! The movie of tons of lessons, is what it is!!

Today the lesson is about confidence. For those of you who haven't seen this movie, I will let you in on it a little. Eliza Doolittle is a flower girl from the streets that doesn't know much about anything but survival on the streets. Her dad is an alcoholic and she sells flowers to survive. One day she dreams of owning her own flower shop and wants to learn proper English.

She meets an arrogant English professor and "hires" him to teach her. Little did they know that they were teaching one another and whether he wanted to believe it or not, he was falling in love with her.

Being confident does not mean that you have to flaunt, be arrogant and rude or tasteless. There is so much to learn about what a confident lady should be.

Confidence is modesty, head held high, sweetness and kindness, admiration for life and nature. Your positive surroundings give you that "sweet" confidence that men love. You don't have to play hard to get or be stuck up to show yourself confident.

A confident women does not have to admit that she is confident either ;). Please watch and pay special attention to this clip from "My Fair Lady".



She is highly confident to a man who remains arrogant. I LOVE this, because he is still learning and it took him to realize that he was falling in love before he understood what he was learning from her :) I just love this...

Thursday, June 24, 2010

Communication is More Than Talking - For Parents

Passionate!

YES Passionate about Communication!

I just want to talk about the impact of communication and taking it beyond merely talking. I have three wonderful kids and their interest is my top priority. I am ALWAYS looking for ways to improve as their mom. It is Very Very important to me.

I have always said that if there was such a thing as a greatest fear, that failing as a mom was definitely it.

We MUST talk to our children. I mean that sounds sort of cliché. Really and truly a lot of parents do not even communicate at all. Sad reality folks. Now for those of us who already do and are scavenging ways to improve our relationship with our kids, hey, there IS more to it!

Not only make eye contact with them, try holding their hands or touching their face and head. I cannot describe the impact that it has. I just started to really do this. My youngest son even sits next to me and will hold my hand. It's positive and is necessary for their emotional growth.

Sunday, June 20, 2010

Imma Cool Apostolic Girl ;)

Thursday evening I was all about the Lakers and Celtics game. When I am watching a game, especially a Championship game, I want no interruptions. However, on this particular game my 22 year old cousin and his 20 year old bro in law come be bopping in right in the middle of the game, bleh! lol

Anyways, they thought it was just awesome to see this "old" 31 year old woman who is so "Religious" cheering like I was. I am the type of person that when I put my heart into something, I put it in all the way and a good game is no exception! I made the guys wait until the end before I gave them a ride home.

It paid off:

Here they come strolling in at midnight last night. I said sure stay the night but I would love to see you in church with me tomorrow. They both were all for it. Hey, Katy is pretty cool ,laid back and "balanced" ;) Surely the church folks are too... See where this is going ;)

Guess what? Both my guys were in the alter, crying. My cousin even honored my pastor and let him know that he wanted to make a change. I was so happy! Wow... not too often does a visitor stand and honor the Pastor AND pour his heart out! Praise the Lord - the focused prayer works!

Even better than that, Joe volunteered to help put up sheet rock in our new church tomorrow night! Bible study next weekend here at my house. Jesus is rockin! My cousin WILL make an excellent soul winner!! He is so energetic! :) Anyway, I am glad that I am a sports fanatic. It gets people's attention! :)

Friday, June 18, 2010

My Letter to the Single Mom with Fatherless Kids

YOU are not alone! There are so many of us in this world and especially in the States who are going through this pain.

Dear Mom,

Jesus is your only hope and I am just going to be very honest with you. There is a danger in you dating and allowing men to come in and out of your life. First of all, you have children who are torn because the most important man in their life is no longer there.

It is not okay to test the waters. Dating is absolutely fine, but you CANNOT bring your children around someone that you are merely dating. There is danger with this and I am going to tell you why. Please note that I am not a counselor, yet. I am giving my personal thoughts and feelings about this, because it is very serious.

Children become attached to people very easily. If you are with a man and they have no father in their lives, they will automatically cling to him, thinking this is Dad now.

It is of the utmost importance to guard their hearts. Because of the fact that you are bringing men into your life, with the possibility that they are going to leave, you WILL reopen old wounds in your children.

This cycle can and will repeat with every new boyfriend you introduce your kids to. Please be watchful of them and their feelings. Keep communication open at all costs and shower them with as much love as you can! They NEED it!

The Sweetest and Shiniest Apples Cannot Be Shaken

This blog is for the lonely, the hurting, the givers of all themselves.

I just want to show you something that the Lord has shown me over these past couple years about love, loneliness, heartache and pain. Being lonely is by far one of the most painful things that I have to face day to day. Even worse then that is being lonely when you are married. That is why I am certain and I refuse to be shaken down and fall into the same trap that a lot of lonely people do.

True love is not a game. We all know how it works, we may have played it but I have learned that to have all that God has for me, He is not going to put me in any position where I have to play mind games to try and win someone over. Been there, done that!

I do know that all I have to do is just be me. Sometimes being the lonely apple on the top of the tree means to sit there, keep shining and allow the Sun to keep you warm.

Sweet apples cannot be shaken down to the ground; they know the game and are too sweet to play it.

Wednesday, June 16, 2010

Take It From A Giver

I am not here trying to brag as you may think from the title to this blog. I want to talk about a very important subject that is vital for your overall health.

I was born to give. Although I don't have material things or money to give; I give something that is even more valuable. I give of myself, my time and energy. It is just how I was made. I want to literally SAVE THE WORLD!

This has been a very painful lesson for me, because I am a natural giver. The Lord taught me a valuable lesson about "Who is really important".

For someone who LOVES and wants to help EVERYONE, this was an EXTREMELY painful but very necessary "process" (I guess you can say). This is an ongoing process actually. People will come and go through your life. Being a lover of people, I find this to be a very painful ordeal.

In order to move on and continue to grow, we must let go of people that drain us or don't add life to us. We must also remember that we cannot "save" everyone. What I mean is that there are some people who really rely on us for encouragement, strength, prayer, love and constant attention. These people WILL drain us!

However, there are only so many people that we can "tend" to. I, personally am a single mother who is caring for her kids, alone. My three kids are everything to me. They are my top priority, although I feel that ALL kids are my priority. Kids are my passion!

However, it is impossible for me to pour my time and energy into everyone, so things are done in moderation. I don't even ponder anymore like I use to. I have such a burden for people and especially the poor and children, but have found a medium that will not consume me or my time with my kids.

I am not being selfish. The Lord showed me this and it broke my heart, because I want to share my heart with everyone and anyone who is willing to take it! That is why it hurts so bad.

People are placed into our lives for a reason and a season. They may have impacted our lives so greatly that we may grow fond of them, but sometimes that feeling of bond or closeness is greater than what we are GAINING in the relationship. When this happens, it is time to let go.

I can really write so much about this, but I feel I have covered most of my own personal experiences. Hope you were able to benefit from this. It's a tough lesson and hurts like crazy, but it is very important to learn!

Tuesday, June 15, 2010

"Lord, Why am I Always Sad?"

Since I have been awake this morning, I have felt a heaviness that will not go away. I can't really describe it, except that it feels like sorrow and burden.

Have you ever been so sad and you didn't know why? I can remember countless times as a young convert asking the Lord and pondering this sadness. I remember praying and crying so much that my stomach would hurt.

There are times when my heart won't stop breaking for reasons unknown. Sometimes I would cry around people I didn't even know, simply because I could feel their pain or see it on them.

I would wake up in the middle of the night and feel this uncontrollable urge to cry, for no reason in particular. I would ask the Lord why I was always so sad. I didn't understand it. I even "reminded" Him that I was to have joy.

It came to me one day that this was something He put in me because of my love for people. There will never be any getting away from it. It is part of who I am. It's painful and there is a lot of sorrow that comes with it. However, my love for God and people is far greater than this sadness.

Just to be used of God gives me great joy deep inside. Please remember that if you see me with a sad face, it doesn't mean that I am not happy. I am just a willing vessel who has found a place in the Kingdom and has joyfully accepted it.

Florida Court Sets Atheist Holy Day

-----I never forward emails but this was too good not to post!!-----

Florida Court Sets Atheist Holy Day! Gotta love this Judge!

You must read this.....a proper decision by the courts...for a change.

FLORIDA COURT SETS ATHEIST HOLY DAY



In Florida , an atheist created a case against the upcoming Easter and Passover Holy days. He hired an attorney to bring a discrimination case against Christians and Jews and observances of their holy days. The argument was that it was unfair that atheists had no such recognized days.

The case was brought before a judge. After listening to the passionate presentation by the lawyer, the judge banged his gavel declaring, "Case dismissed!"



The lawyer immediately stood objecting to the ruling saying, "Your honor, How can you possibly dismiss this case? The Christians have Christmas, Easter and others. The Jews have Passover, Yom Kippur and Hanukkah, yet my client and all other atheists have no such holidays."

The judge leaned forward in his chair saying, "But you do. Your client, counsel, is woefully ignorant."

The lawyer said, "Your Honor, we are unaware of any special observance or holiday for atheists."

The judge said, "The calendar says April 1st is April Fools Day. Psalm 14:1 states, 'The fool says in his heart, there is no God.' Thus, it is the opinion of this court, that, if your client says there is no God, then he is a fool. Therefore, April 1st is his day. Court is adjourned."

You gotta love a Judge that knows his scripture!

Saturday, June 12, 2010

Blazing Blue



Picture by Graur Razvan Ionut - Free Digital Photos

Bright blazing blue eyes
Captivate my longing heart
Sweet smile, mesmerized

Tuesday, June 8, 2010

Outreach Director v. Kingdom Worker

What does it mean to be Kingdom minded?

Kingdom minded people want to see people saved. There is one thing that I have noticed in some churches. It is almost as if we are competing for numbers. Churches that think this way are not being Kingdom minded. However, it goes even further then that.

Being Kingdom minded starts in the heart. People that are Kingdom minded consistently look for opportunities to win a soul.

-When they travel.
-When they Interact online.

True outreach is not winning people to your own church. An outreach director is just that, a director. They organize the churches outreach team. ANYONE can do that! It takes a burden, prayer, fasting and a calling to be KINGDOM minded and a worker for the Kingdom.

I love to see people won to the Lord. It is my heart's desire. We have a brand new church that will seat hundreds. We currently run just 50.

The question one should ask:

Is it more important to the Lord to see the building filled or to see souls filled with the Holy Ghost??

A KINGDOM minded person prays that God INCREASE their territory.
An Outreach Director organizes outreach and just prays to win the city.

I GUARANTEE that if Outreach coordinators would become Kingdom minded, God will bring more into the Kingdom, by increasing their territory.

Remember: We are not winning people to our church, we are winning them to the Kingdom. Think on that and watch God!

Friday, June 4, 2010

There is Freedom in Forgiveness

Life takes us many ways. Some paths we chose, some we follow and some we are forced to take. Sometimes it's not always in the path that we take, but the decisions that we make along the way. A lot of the times, when it is all said and done, we realize that we are only causing ourselves the pain.

About 2 1/2 years ago I met someone who made a huge impact on my life. I met them in person, just to meet them for lunch or dinner. I never thought that we would ever be more than acquaintances and we never were. When I came home I realized that I had strong feelings for them. I got scared, anxious and desperate in fear of losing them. Later I realized that we get that fear when someone has hurt us and we love them. It is as though we lose a part of our self. In fact, I felt that way with my ex husband during the separation and divorce, because I feared him.

In my desperate attempt to express my feelings for him, I probably messed up and really freaked him out. These feelings were strong, I really felt that I loved him and he had to know. I think it was too much for him. Keep in mind, we never even held hands or even talked hardly at all.

It was too much, me expressing the way I feel and I think I eventually angered him. He wrote me the most hurtful letter that broke my heart. Immediately I forgave him, because I knew I had to be that way and that I was probably coming on too strong.

However, after that he never acknowledged me and because I wanted his forgiveness, I kept contacting him and I was hurt even more. Whenever I would read something he wrote on line, I felt those feelings but the hurt was still there. This went on for over a year or so.

Finally a few months back, I realized that I had to let go of these crazy feelings and everything about "us" (there never was us though)to feel entirely free. I feel that I had to get even, but never realized that this is what it really was.

It wasn't until I let it all go that I realized that letting go of the entire situation and contacting him that it is what I needed to do all along. I really thought that I forgave him. I was just holding on to someone that really hurt me because I was afraid to lose a part of myself.

Now I can look back and smile, knowing I did what I could to make amends. I let it all go and I can honestly say that I have learned a lot from it.

I am more cautious about my heart and who I give it to. My dad called me gullible when I was a child and I feel that I still may be a little bit :) I just love very passionately, deeply and sincerely but I guess some people can't accept it or maybe they don't know how to.

During this time, I was literally tormented with thoughts and spirits. I know now that there were feelings of bitterness that I just didn't know how to shake. My mind and my whole being was effected. It effected my family and those I love. I got angry and hurt people close to me. It felt as though something deep within me was eating at me. I was tormented...

Forgiveness is like this:

1. Accepting what caused the pain with honesty to yourself.
2. It's ok to feel the pain of the situation. Write or talk about your feelings.
3. You can't get even. Know all the things are the Lord's vengeance.
4. You are forgiving others for yourself. You cannot save them or feel like they will be hurt by you letting them go. (This was my biggest reason for not letting go).

When we realize that we must not only forgive in our heart but that we must let go and chose to not get even, we haven't completely forgiven them. It is not until we let go, that we have really forgiven them.

Thursday, June 3, 2010

Life - Haiku


Photo by Francesco Marino/Free Digital Photos

Life is about growth
Watering souls with the Word
Pure hearts with Sunshine

Tuesday, June 1, 2010

Trust - Haiku

Something in your eyes
And the soft touch of your hands
My heart can trust you

Friday, May 28, 2010

5 Things That I Would Love to Change About My Business

This is the second part to my previous article about loving my job (business). First of all, I have the mindset of an entrepreneur and I have been like that for about 5 years now. I just never knew where to go. I found that I would have really no competition here and hey the cost is very low. I do all the work! lol

1. HEALTH - When I started out business and social networking online over four years ago, I wanted to do my part with bringing money into the household. (I was married at this time and had two small toddlers). This is why I decided to search for something online. I began with Melaleuca. I am sucker for better health and less chemicals. I am still the same way.

However, the cost is something I can't afford. In the near future I want to bring Melaleuca back into my home AND business for the health of my family and clients. It will enhance my business and set me apart from others. Not only that, it is another stream of good income. I made over $800 in my first month and a half with them. Move me to the big city and I would soar with these two right here.

2. EXPANSION - I really don't want to be here in teeny-tiny Vivian forever. I want to move eventually and take my cleaning with me. It is an awesome business because it really doesn't cost much. Basically I furnish the cleaning rags and I do buy soaps, because I refuse to use harsh chemicals.

3. MORE CLIENTS - I know that I can find more even in this small community. I go throughout North Caddo and I know that there are others who need a maid. It's just finding them!

4. GRANTS - I need to tap into some sort of first time small business owner grants. I am a single mom of three and I am also a full time student! SURELY there is something out there. I want to get this thorn in my side of a car (BLESSING TOO) paid off, so I can get my head above the water.

5. INSPIRATION - I thrive on others opinions, insight and inspiration! I have a hunger for good advice and constructive criticism because I want to be the best!

Building a business (any business) takes a lot of patience and hard work. I can write a book about everything from customer service to proper maid etiquette and then some.

Wednesday, May 26, 2010

I Do Love My Job... I Do Love My Job... I Do I Do I Dooo...

YES I am a toilet scrubber. I am VERY good at scrubbing toilets, taking out the trash, making beds, getting my elbows dirty and killing my back! One thing that I am NOT good at is working for someone else lol.

I learned in the (almost) two years that I have been cleaning houses that I just don't know if I can ever work a 9-5 again. Here is what I love about having my own maid service... 5 things!

1. FLEXIBILITY - yes! I have three kids, they have no father who is in their lives. That means it is VITAL that I am with them as much as possible! I am BLESSED to have my own cleaning business so that I am there when they are home!

2. MONEY - I am not quite there yet. I am barely making ends meet. However, if I could ever get to my goal of two houses a day, Mon-Fri I will be doing pretty good. Yes, it's a struggle, but hey I am in Vivian, Louisiana! lol When it all comes down to it, I am making about $25-30 an hour, because I clean like Taz!

3. PEOPLE - I LOVE to serve others and make their lives easier. I am a people pleaser! What better way then to help others have more time to spend doing things they love and the ability to spend time with family. Hey, it's hard working a full time job when you have a family.

4. MY OWN THING - I get to make my own hours and sometimes I take my kids to work. Hey, it can't get any better than that! I cannot stand day care. First of all, I cannot breathe in one because of the bleach! I am surely not going to make my kids stay there all day.

5. MOVE IT WITH ME - Hey if I move, it moves with me! If I ever move out of here (LOL)- some day in JESUS NAME, I can take it with me. In a big city, I can easily make $25 more per house, EASILY. Not to mention cleaning business offices. There is so much potential in this business.

After almost two years in this, with the help of Jesus (couldn't have done this without Him) I have good clientele and referrals. Needless to say, I wouldn't have it any other way. That is until I get my BS in Psychology ;) lol Then I will have a homeless shelter!

Everyone needs a maid, but not everyone has a good one ;) lol

Saturday, May 15, 2010

Within the Walls of a Miracle!



If you have known me for the past few years, you know that I have had a consuming passion to see this church built. I recount the many days that we drove past our land and praised the Lord for the church He was going to plant on it.

Gradually over the next few years, we had dirt, then a cement slab and finally our beautiful church. This video will take you within the walls of a MIRACLE.

Please note that my pastor received a prophetic word over 20 years ago that he will get $100,000 to build a new church. Well that is what we started with when a local "angel" challenged us to raise $50,000. This $500,000 building was built on a vision, speaking faith, much prayer and a LOT of homemade peanut brittle making!

Sunday, May 2, 2010

Eagles and Apple Trees

I am blogging about something rather unusual on this Sunday night. I mean it's not quite midnight, I am in the middle of folding clothes, but I felt like writing about something I have always thought was really neat.

I am very fascinated with eagles and their behaviors. The main thing that I want to talk about is whenever a female eagle searches for a mate, she has an extremely precise way of making sure that he is the right one.

First of all, eagles mate for life. They are faithful to one another, until the other dies. I thought that was pretty awesome. When she is trying to find a mate, the female will release rocks in the air to see how fast the male eagle will catch it. She repeats this over and over. He must be swift and precise. She does this because when she has babies, he will have to be able to catch them, should they fall.

They both share chores and take turns incubating the nest. I think that it is amazing how birds know to do exactly what humans should do as well.

It is the father's responsibility to protect his family. All women should have an eagle mentality when looking for a mate, especially one who already has children.

Remember ladies, it's not always you. Yes, continue to do your best and better yourself, but never let a man make you feel worthless. Be slow to give your heart and attentive to his actions. This is important. Remember that you are the apple that is on the top of the tree.

Girls are like
apples on trees. The best
ones are at the top of the tree.
The boys don't want to reach for
the good ones because they are afraid
of falling and getting hurt. Instead, they
just get the rotten apples from the ground
that aren't as good, but easy. So the apples
at the top think something is wrong with
them, when in reality, they're amazing.
They just have to wait for the right
boy to come along, the one
who's brave enough
to climb
all the way
to the top
of the tree.

Tuesday, April 27, 2010

Don't Criticize A Single Mom

Today something is on my mind and I guess because I am a wee bit bothered by, I just gotta let it out!

There are more single mothers out there now then ever. We see them loaded with their kids at the grocery store. How about driving down the road with the backseat full of kids. Stop and think for a moment.

I hear all the time parents talk about how rough it is sometimes to keep control of their kids. It is challenging for parents of small kids. Especially parents that work long hours and are just too tired to come home and spend time with the kids. That MUST change first of all. Did you know that kids act out the most because they want your attention. I know this all too well.

So we have two parents who work and have a couple small kids. They are having it rough in the house because of the lack of balance! If you find that you don't have time to spend with your family - YOU NEED ANOTHER JOB! Plain and simple :)

Now that we have the scenario with two parents and a couple kids. A lot of us can relate! Myself included! Well times have changed. I am now divorced and my kids' father has no part in their life at all. So what am I dealing with? Here's a list:

1. ALL financial burden is on me. I have my own business.
2. I am my kids' mom and dad emotionally.
3. I do it all. Run errands, shopping, ball practice/games, homework, comfort, play, take them to church, pray with them. EVERYTHING!
4. I go to school.
5. Active in most church activities.
6. I do all my household chores.
7. The list goes on and on!

I will admit it, it can get hectic. My kids get rowdy. I have a difficult time trying to tame them down. They are not on meds, but I know my youngest is very hyper. My daughter is dealing with bitterness because her father is not in her life. I am trying to keep her from getting that way. IT IS NOT EASY!

MY LIFE IS VERY HARD! Yet I REFUSE to be discouraged and dwell on that. Instead I take my energy and focus it on making us all more comfortable and happy, seeking God and WISDOM through it all.

I said all of that to say this: The next time you see a single mom get frustrated and raise her voice. If she is tired and doesn't have the energy to play with her kids... Instead of saying how bad of a mom she is and beating her in the ground. Try helping her. Two hours of alone time and help to her is A LOT for a single mom.

Take the kids to the park so she can have some "me" time. Any single mom doing it alone is a GOOD Mom! She is also an exhausted one.

You MUST maintain balance in all aspects of your life.

Monday, April 5, 2010

Party Invitations SHOULD NOT Be Passed Out in the Classroom

I have this really serious problem with parents who allow their kids to give out party invitations to other classmates, UNLESS they are inviting the entire class. I wouldn't allow it and I don't think that other parents should either. It just isn't fair.

My son comes home with a piece of subject notebook paper that has a list of birthday party details written on it. I asked if the teacher had put it on the chalk board for the entire class. He told me that he copied it from the invitation his other friend got.

My heart was breaking as I was trying to explain to my 7 year old (who is in tears for being left out) that he was not invited to the party. I had to explain to him that he wasn't invited and sometimes Mommies can't invite a lot of people, because there wouldn't be enough goodies to go around.

This is a very hard situation because now he feels like he is not liked by this person. Sometimes parents don't think about things, before they do it. I have been guilty. Parents please take heed and be wise. Think of your own child and how they would feel in this same situation.

Thanks

Thursday, April 1, 2010

Passion Focused

I have taken on a new path (for those who know me, this is not unusual, am I right?) :) I have always been passionate about people and soul winning. However with my horrific separation and divorce, my passions have become dim. The thing about a passion is that you never really lose them. They may fade a little, but they always come back.

Knowing about Soulwinners Bootcamp for a couple years, I knew that this type of ministry is my passion and that there was something here. I added the profile to my Myspace page, sort of keeping that passion on hold. I knew there was something to learn and grow from, but it just wasn't time.

I was recently browsing and came across Matt Maddix's profile again and something clicked. It was time!

Funny how right away he talks about passion and following it. That is exactly what I had in mind. I want to learn all there is to know about winning souls, because it is my PASSION!

I have also learned that we must prioritize our passions because we have more than one. My deal is that I have several of them but there aren't that many hours in the day. This is another thing that Matt helps us with. Prioritize your passions!

God goes without saying in my life because He is the center of ALL of my passions! Let's see what I mean.

My kids and all their activities! #1 - God is the center of this because we MUST get our house in order. If we don't we CANNOT do anything in the Kingdom or anything fruitful!

God loves order.

Soul Winning #2 - This is close to God's heart. Winning souls is the heartbeat of God. To me being passionate about this is to also seek wisdom from God, learn and listen to others who are fruitful (like Bro Matt) and be real. You have to love and be compassionate about souls. Not all saved people do! True fact!

My Business #3 - God has to be the center of this! I have to be able to be in a position, any time of the day, in any situation, to be able to witness about the Lord. Every single day I look for new and excited ways to witness to clients and people I run into. I take every moment to listen to the voice of God and allow Him to guide me to what He would have me to say or do. My business prospering is in His hands. He built it so far and if it falls tomorrow, he will surely have other plans for me.

School #4 - The Lord must guide me through this because I don't want to waste my time and money learning about something that wont benefit the Kingdom. I am in for my As in IT, but my interest and desire for this is quickly dimming. However, earning my BS in Psychology is becoming more passionate. What this means is that I should drop out of IT, because the Lord is removing that desire. Yes He is capable of doing that, especially because I ask Him to. I am so passionate and emotional about things that I ask the Lord to remove those passions and emotions if they aren't going to benefit me and be fruitful for the Kingdom.

Writing #5 - Every word that my fingers type, I want them to be something coming straight from my heart. I have learned that writing is not always good, because like talking we can "say" some really crazy things. We can also write something that someone may totally misunderstand. I love to write and I tend to wear my emotions right at my finger tips. I pray that like it has been prophesied in times past, my fingers will be anointed to release faith through the Word and encouragement to the hurting that I come across online.

Music #6 - Lord Jesus help me with this one. Music is so very much influential on me. This could be a bad thing because I feel that it is my weakness and can get the best of me. I am focusing on listening to music that is full of the anointing of God and spiritually uplifting!

I think that when we not only write things out, but we share it with others, it helps us better. It puts things that are important to us into perspective. We can reflect on them at a later time and catch inspiration.

I believe if we write our passions down and share them, we can stay focused while we pursue them.

For a positive and motivational experience, listen to what Matt Maddix has to say.

Friday, March 19, 2010

Calgon Take Me Away!!

While bathing the other day, I made the most relaxing discovery. I would have a pic for you all, but showing bathing pics of myself is not my thing, to say the least.

So I will explain what I did and I am sure that you will want to try this.

Fill your bath tub with as hot of water as you can stand. Take both of your legs and cross them, resting them on the wall in front of you. Your legs will be in the air as your body lays parallel. It will be in an "L" shape. Close your eyes and cover your head all but your face. Make sure that your ears are immersed and that you leave a trickle of water audible in the water. trickling water is so relaxing. Place your hands under your head and relax. Stay in that position until the water turns cold. It is so relaxing. Go ahead and try it! ;)

Friday, March 5, 2010

Love Like That Babe but Don't Cross the Line



There comes a time when me as a Christian person has got to get on the offense. Today and for this cause, I will do just that! What I say (or type) comes from the heart with righteous indignation. I want to make something perfectly clear. I will not be sorry if I offend you. If I do, take it up with the Lord.

I want to get something straight with a lot of very confused people. Love me or hate me, this will stick with you, I am sure.

If you know me and I love you, I love with a burning passion. If you can't handle that kind of love, don't meet me or be my friend, because I will scare you. Believe me.

Anyway, this isn't about me, to say the least. However, it is about a lot of people that I love and care about. Let's get the definition of love straight. Love is something that we feel with our spirit, deep within. Love is ONLY given from the Lord Jesus Christ, because He is LOVE.

My God is a passionate lover. He was full of passion when He walked the earth and is still full of passion. There is absolutely nothing wrong with having a passionate kind of love.

"Yeah, sure Katy and where are you going with this".

I am right there...

Love one another with everything that is within you. Don't cross that line.

What line?

It is ok to be passionate about someone and love their very being. When I am around my best friend, Lisa, people would think we were lesbos. We are not, we like men, believe me. However, the passionate love and understanding that we have for one another is the same kind of passion that the Lord had for His disciples.

Matt. 26:49 - And forthwith he came to Jesus, and said, Hail, master; and kissed him.

Mark 14:45 - And as soon as he was come, he goeth straightway to him, and saith, Master, master; and kissed him.

There were accounts of the Lord kissing His disciples. His love for them was (is) so fervent.

My point is that we can be so passionate towards people because they bring that out of us. We can love them passionately, but plain and simple, if that line is crossed, it is sin.

What does God say about homosexuality?:

It is an abomination - abomination is defined as 1. Abhorrence; disgust.

God is disgusted with it. Period! Here have some Biblical clarity and have the Word handy to see for yourself.

Leviticus 18:22 - Thou shalt not lie with mankind, as with womankind: it is abomination.

Leviticus 20:13 - If a man also lie with mankind, as he lieth with a woman, both of them have committed an abomination: they shall surely be put to death; their blood shall be upon them.

1 Corinthians 6: 9-10 - Know ye not that the unrighteous shall not inherit the kingdom of God? Be not deceived: neither fornicators, nor idolaters, nor adulterers, nor effeminate, nor abusers of themselves with mankind,

10 Nor thieves, nor covetous, nor drunkards, nor revilers, nor extortioners, shall inherit the kingdom of God.

Romans 1: 26-28 - For this cause God gave them up unto vile affections: for even their women did change the natural use into that which is against nature:

27And likewise also the men, leaving the natural use of the woman, burned in their lust one toward another; men with men working that which is unseemly, and receiving in themselves that recompence of their error which was meet.

28And even as they did not like to retain God in their knowledge, God gave them over to a reprobate mind, to do those things which are not convenient;

I pray the Lord doesn't turn anyone to a reprobate mind because they are decieved in believing that they are okay with being homosexual. Love one another, don't have sex with them. You can love that deep without crossing the line.

I love you Lisa, miss you too. Hugs and kisses babe! God Bless you!!

Sunday, February 28, 2010

What Would You Do? I Need Some Serious Advice, Please

My heart is very troubled.

Not too long ago, my daughter and I were browsing around Facebook, trying to see if maybe her dad was on there. We ran into a few profiles with his name, but never added any of them because they had no pictures, etc.

Anyway, the other night I came on Facebook and went to Kayla's profile. I watch that thing like a hawk. I want to give her a little freedom, but at the same time, I know her password and I go to her profile all the time to monitor it. I noticed that she had added a profile named Zed Smith. Her father's name is that. Just the other day we found several with the same name.

Keep in mind that she never requested an add from any of them, that I can recall. She also wasn't even online the day that he was added.

Now I am trying to be nice as possible. It could very well be her dad, because the email and his birthday are right. I have written him two emails stating that I was concerned about who he was and that he needed to post a pic and email me back. Kayla has wrote on his wall asking him to talk.

See I don't appreciate this at all. Should I be really concerned? There are many other problems and situations which concerns me, that I won't mention on here. Put it this way, they are not good and that is my highest concern.

Kayla is already hurting a lot because this man who is her father never attempts to contact her. Now this profile appears out of nowhere and the person claiming to be her father wont even talk to her. What should I do? Make her delete him? Will that make it worse on her? I just don't know what to do.

Sunday, February 21, 2010

Gee Thanks For Being the Bearer of Bad News Mom

Nice to know that I am aging! Hey I am 30, you're kidding right mom?

Tonight I called my mom. I haven't talked to her in awhile because I had a prepaid phone and it was too costly. I have free nights and weekends now but anyway, TMI lol

We were talking about many different things. Bless her heart, she can't find a job. Please prayer warriors pray for my mom. Her name is Gina, she lives in Tuscon and is an esthetician in need of a job.

Somehow we got on the subject of my eyes. I have this small bump on my eyelid that appeared last week. At first I thought it was a stye. I did some research and found that it could be different things. Anyways, I described it the best I could to my mom and the first thing that she says is we all need sunblock. I am thinking, "yeah, mom and what in the world does this have to do with this thing on my eye?" lol To my surprise not using some sort of sunblock on (not just me but the entire family) is horrible. Of course being the esthetician that she is, I got the third degree on sunblock :) Love you Mom.

To make matters worse she said all that to say, "uhm, you are just stuck with it for life Katy, it's a sign that you are getting old".

I'm like "what? no way and there is nothing that I can do about this?"

"Sure cosmetic surgery in which no insurance will cover".

This is no fair, I am not old and this thing will be removed!

I mean it's not gruesome and you can barely see it. BUT I CAN SEE IT! uhg..

I guess it's back to wearing eyeshadow - I can't handle this!

Wednesday, February 17, 2010

Smack in Da Hood

LMBO - this is sooooooo funny and if you know my bouncy little six year old, you will be laughing too.

I cannot even contain myself right now and am having a hard time writing this lol

It's nice out so I opened our back screen door, right. The boys are outside playing/sweeping leaves off the porch (well LZ is). Jorli on the other hand cannot move without running, skipping, jumping, being loud and all of the above lol.

Anyway, I was in the living room, folding clothes and all of a sudden I hear "black persoooooooooon" "hey black persoooooon". OMG he has a big mouth.

We are smack dab in the hood and my white kids is outside trying to get someone's attention by calling out "black person?".

He's gonna get my butt kicked one day, I just feel it lol.

He definitely says what he feels LMBO

How Do You Lose Your Shoes?



Do you have a boy?

If so, you know exactly what it is like to go through shoes. I am telling you, they will wear shoes slap out. They got a brand new pair for Christmas. They are already worn so bad that the toes are totally gone! LZ totally "lost" his shoes. The ones that are in the pic are Jorli's.

How in the world do you "lose" a pair of shoes?!? Anyway, I told them that I would go to Walmart to see what they had.

I sure was excited to find them both a nice $17 pair of shoes at the nice price of a whoopin $5. Hopefully these will last them until Easter, at least!

They both have this thought that new shoes will help them run faster. I think it's hilarious and I just play along with them. Needless to say, they spent the entire evening running back and forth through the house with their new shoes on :) lol That is when they got away with it.

Sunday, February 14, 2010

The Techies Valentine

Today I decided to log onto an old email account and found myself reading old emails. Some brought tears, some made me roll my eyes, then some made me smile, like this one, I wanted to share it. Have a beautiful Valentines Day.

INSTALLING LOVE:

Tech Support: Yes, how can I help you?

Customer: Well, after much consideration, I've decided to install Love. Can you guide me through the process?

Tech Support: Yes. I can help you. Are you ready to proceed?

Customer: Well, I'm not very technical, but I think I'm ready. What do I do first?

Tech Support: The first step is to open your Heart. Have you located your Heart?

Customer: Yes, but there are several other programs running now. Is it okay to install Love while they are running?

Tech Support: What programs are running?

Customer: Let's see, I have Past Hurt, Low Self-Esteem, Grudge and Resentment running right now.

Tech Support: No problem,Love will gradually erase Past Hurt from your current operating system. It may remain in your permanent memory but it will no longer disrupt other programs. Love will eventually override Low Self-Esteem with a module of its own called High Self- Esteem. However, you have to completely turn off Grudge and Resentment. Those programs prevent Love from being properly installed. Can you turn those off?

Customer: I don't Know how to turn them off. Can you tell me how?

Tech Support: With pleasure. Go to your start menu and invoke Forgiveness. Do this as many times as necessary until Grudge and Resentment have been completely erased.

Customer: Okay, done! Love has started installing itself. Is that normal?

Tech Support: Yes, but remember that you have only the base program. You need to begin connecting to other hearts in order to get the upgrades.

Customer: Oops! I have an error message already. It says, "Error - Program not run on external components." What should I do?

Tech Support: Don't worry. It means that the Love program is set up to run on Internal Hearts, but has not yet been run on your Heart. In non-technical terms, it simply means you have to Love yourself before you can Love others.

Customer: So, what should I do?

Tech Support: Pull down Self-Acceptance; then click on the following files: Forgive-Self; Realize Your Worth; and Acknowledge your Limitations.

Customer: Okay, done.

Tech Support: Now, copy them to the "My Heart" directory. The system will overwrite any conflicting files and begin patching faulty programming Also, you need to delete Verbose Self-Criticism from all directories and empty your Recycle Bin to make sure it is completely gone and never comes back.

Customer: Got it. Hey! My heart is filling up with new files. Smile is playing on my monitor and Peace and Contentment are copying themselves all over My Heart. Is this normal ?

Tech Support: Sometimes. For others it takes awhile, but eventually everything gets it at the proper time. So Love is installed and running. One more thing before We hang up. Love is Freeware. Be sure to give it and its various modules to everyone you meet. They will in turn share it with others and return some cool modules back to you.

Customer: Thank you, have a great day.

Thursday, February 11, 2010

Jorli Has a Date!

The other day my baby boy (age 6) came to me and said "Mom, I got a girlfriend". I said "Oh really, so what's her name?" He told me her name and we carried on a small convo about his new love.

I just smiled. It is so cute! Hey and I thought girls had cooties at that age??

Anyway, yesterday he comes in and says, "Mom, I have a date with Alora and a wedding"!

Trying to contain myself and keep from busting out laughing, I responded with "Oh really and when is this special date"?

"We are going out this weekend", he smiled. This was so cute until his big brother and sister caught on. I was being serious and they stepped in to make fun. However, I just continued with his new little date conversation.

I said, "oh and what nice restaurant are you taking her to and who is paying"?

He smiled real big and said, "we are going to Wendi's and she told me that she has the money".

I busted out laughing. I said, "oh really and what are you going to wear on this nice date?"

His response, "my preacher outfit with a tie". (how adorable) :) **proud momma**

He really has a major crush on this girl and asked me if I could buy her a pretty necklace for Valentine's day. I told him that we will get her something special. Aww my baby is a little charmer. :)

Wednesday, February 10, 2010

"Like Duh" - Just When You Thought You Read All the Blonde Jokes

Thanks for the laugh Mom - needed this LOL

My mom forwarded me this and wanted to share with all you. Oh and if you are not already blonde, I don't recommend going blonde. haha


1~ A married couple was asleep when the phone rang at 2 in the morning. The very blonde wife picked up the phone, listened a moment, and said 'How should I know, that's 200 miles from here!' and hung up. The husband said, 'Who was that?' The wife answered, 'I don't know, some woman wanting to know if the coast is clear.'

2~ Two blondes are walking down the street. One notices a compact on the sidewalk and leans down to pick it up. She opens it, looks in the mirror and says, 'Hmm, this person looks familiar.' The second blonde says, 'Here, let me see!'
So, the first blonde hands her the compact. The second blonde looks in the mirror and says, 'You dummy, it's me!'

3~ A blonde was bragging about her knowledge of state capitals. She proudly says, 'Go ahead, ask me... I know 'em all.'A friend says, 'OK, what's the capital of Wisconsin ?'The blonde replies, 'Oh, that's easy. Its W.'

4~ Q: What did the blonde ask her doctor when he told her she was pregnant?
A: 'Is it mine?'

5~ Returning home from work, a blonde was shocked to find her house ransacked and burglarized. She telephoned the police at once and reported the crime. The police dispatcher broadcast the call on the radio, and a K-9 unit, patrolling nearby, was the first to respond. As the K-9 officer approached the house with his dog on a leash, the blonde ran out on the porch, shuddered at the sight of the cop and his dog, then sat down on the steps.

Putting her face in her hands, she moaned, 'I come home to find all my possessions stolen. I call the police for help, and what do they do? They send me a BLIND COP!'

Friday, February 5, 2010

Yummy Stuff: Godiva Giveaway

Who can resist Godiva chocolates? Valentine's Day is ahead and what better way to spread the love then to send a virtual gesture?

I know some of us are dieting (like me)... so do some extra sit-ups. That's what I say. In other words, I am indulging in some chocolate this Valentine's Day, whether it is Godiva chocolate or whatever.

Gotta have some chocolate, somehow, someway.

On my little chocolate searching adventure, I came across an irresistable offer and wanted to share. How about a couple of free boxes of Godiva chocolate, by following a couple simple steps.

It's as easy as visiting Godiva website.

Click on Godiva and satisfy your sweet tooth :)

Slap Some Jo on My Hair Please


The other day when I went to Joy's, one of our deep convos consisted of all natural stuff. Then we got into coloring our hair.

She asked me if I colored my hair and I said "Yeah, and I need to do it again". Anyway, I like to keep a little bit of red tint in my hair when I color it. We proceeded in the convo and started talking about all natural hair color. I didn't know there was such a thing so I told her that I would check it out!

Coffee!

Yes, coffee. Imagine that lol

For all us brunettes, triple strength brewed black coffee is the answer to our all natural hair color woes. I just laughed and told myself that I was going to try it.

I did. Did it work... uh, well maybe I should have left it in a little longer. Either that or I need to try something else. It was almost like it stripped the color that I did have in my hair. The red tint is not as bright :(.

I need to find something! Hair color stinks lol Not to mention it takes 3 boxes to do my hair. Anyway, I thought that coffee was very interesting for all natural hair color.

Suggestions are welcome.

Thursday, February 4, 2010

Only a Real Woman Can Give Up Godiva Chocolate Candy Bars

I went to my Wednesday weekly and my dear Joy was home with two of her babies, who are sick. (Were sick because the Lord is gonna heal them!) I really enjoyed the "visit" despite I was cleaning my behind off and couldn't really talk. So funny because she is a trip. Once you get her talking, we can go on all day and talk about everything :).

Anyway, she is always giving me things. I think it's adorable. She reminds me of me. You cannot go to Joy's without either eating or getting something from the fridge, the closet or somewhere :) Well she had put together a bag of stuff that I thought was just for Kayla. (So sweet, so I guess this may even belong in the "Counting my Blessings" category).

Anyway, after a fun morning with two cute little helpers and a few laughs, I left, never looking in the bag.

It wasn't until that evening that I gave the bag of goodies to Kayla, which included a couple cute shirts and some other stuff. She then came upon some cloth napkins - which can be dish towels too (thanks Joy - they match) ;).

Kayla came into the kitchen and handed me this chocolate candy bar. She said "Momma is this yours too"? My eyes got big and I felt a huge smile come on my face. "It is now, lol, give me that!" I just laughed and proceeded to open it.

Pure heaven for just a moment. I broke off the first peice of Godiva chocolate with caramel filling and savored ever tiny little bite. I knew I would have to blog about this because it takes a real woman to give up a Godiva chocolate candy bar.

I am totally on a diet so I shared it with the kids. Yummy stuff, thanks Joy :)

Wednesday, February 3, 2010

Smoothie-licious


Oh I was so excited yesterday when I got my new smoothie blender. Pretty cool... I can grate cheese and nuts, etc. Anyway, I was so anxious to try it out but I haven't been grocery shopping, so I opened the fridge to scrap up some fresh fruits that I knew I had in there.

With no recipe, no imagination, I thought "what the heck, I will just throw it all together and try it". You never know.

So we made a smoothie with fresh pineapple, blueberries, oranges and grapefruit juice. Not knowing what I was concocting here, I just stuck it all in the blender and let 'er rip.

Turned out pretty and yummy! Kayla said skip the blueberries next time. They stuck to her teeth lol. I don't recommend oranges in them either because of the peel in between the slices. I am using orange juice next time.

I topped it off with my 50 sit ups and some legcersizing.

Friday, January 29, 2010

My Son Writing !!Lines?? WHAT?

My kids have this really funny way about them. Since we practically live at the library, they have come accustom to the Internet and playing online games, etc.

Anyway, every single day they come in after school (the library is right next to the school, so they walk, unless it's rainy) and come over to me to show me all the good papers that they have. I have learned that this is their way of throwing me off so they can get on the computer and skip their homework.

This is especially true for LZ. The kid NEVER does his homework. He always has some excuse like I broke my pencil or my hand hurts. Although I praise them for their good work, I noticed (like I said) that they will do that to side track me, make me happy, praise them and somehow "allow" them to go online. Not anymore! I have learned their sneaky little fiasco and have put a stop to it.

LOL...

One day LZ be bops up to me after school and says "guess what Mom, I had to write lines today". I was thinking, "what in the world is this child going to show me. He has this smirk on his face, so what is he up to" lol.

Yeah, lines for sure! It was hilarious. I didn't know whether I wanted to spank his little smartie pants behind or bust out laughing...

I just smiled and said "go do your homework boy".

Yeah look at his "lines". :)LMBO

Thursday, January 28, 2010

Quickest Way to Make a Woman Fall in Love With You...

KIDS!

No I don't mean she wants you to get her pregnant. LMBO (I know how you guys think)

Love her kids.

Love your kids, definitely!

No kids?

Love kids, period!

Be genuine and sincere about it!

Another tip...

Love what and who she loves.

For a real man who wants and desires a real lady... love Jesus. Real ladies love Jesus!

Wednesday, January 27, 2010

Me + Mr. Clean + His Magic = Heaven

Oh how I love Mr. Clean, today. You would think that after a year, I would have caught on, but nope. I guess I am old fashioned in a lot of ways, even when it comes to cleaning.

Who hates soap scum? Scrubbing your arms off? Breathing horrible chemically ladened products all put together with the kiddos tugging at your skirt? Me me me!!

Well today I put the scrub brush away and welcomed Mr. Clean with open arms. This is a simple equation, really.

3 minutes of "wiping" + Mr. Clean Magic Eraser = no soap scum. Yes, wiping not scrubbing.

I truly feel sorry to all the grandmas that still have a bottle of bleach attached to their arm. (Maybe that is what's wrong with all of us born from parents of the hippie generation - more than pot fried our brain cells)... lol

NO home (especially with kids) should be without Mr. Clean Magic Erasers! Oh and Proctor and Gamble, I accept Paypal or you can just mail me a check. :)

Saturday, January 23, 2010

Beauty Slang Peeves

I guess this comes from my mom and it kinda stuck with me. There are just some things that drive me crazy and not knowing proper beauty slang is one of them.

I hate it when:

She plucks her eyebrows.

lol...

We pluck chickens and worse, ticks off dogs. We don't pluck eye brows. The proper slang for this proceedure is "tweeze". You can either tweeze or wax your eyebrows. You don't pluck them.

I am going to get my hair dyed.

Nope, your hair is dead cells, yes. However, you never dye it. You dye clothing like tie dyed shirts, but we "color" our hair. If you decide to go blonde, it can pass as bleaching your hair. Even though I really don't like that one either, but it will do.

Since I am big on nails and manicures, I want to mention something about them, since I am on this topic. I cannot stand when a woman saws her fingernails. When you "file" your nails, you should move the file in one direction, lift and repeat. Never use a sawing motion, especially if you have weak nails.

When you apply makeup, there is another thing that drives me crazy. When a woman chooses a color for foundation, it should match her skin tone. The best test for this is to apply a little of the color to the base of your thumb on the outside of your hand. This is a part of your body that closely matches the color of your face. If it doesn't blend in, it is not your color. You may need help with this. A lot of places like Dillards or Penneys has beauty consultants who can assist you.

Here are some tips:

Wet hair is NEVER to be brushed (actually recently learned this). Use a comb.
You can apply the conditioner to your dry hair before showering. This helps keep moisture in it.

Another thing is don not let a cosmetologist lie to you by saying that your hair will grow faster when you cut it. This is a lie because hair grows from the roots, not the ends. All hair is made up of is dead cells.